My Testmony

If there is one thing I have learned through college, it is that I do not know very much. There are so many things about this wonderful world I do not know. But, I do know a few things. I do know that there is a God. I know that He is my Heavenly Father. I know that He loves me and knows me. He is aware of my everyday life. I don't know how, but I know it's true. I don't know His plan for me, but I know that He has one. I know His plan for all of His children to return back to him. I know that His plan centers on sending His son down to Earth to suffer and die for all of my sins, which are many, and sorrows. Not only did He do this for me, but He did this for all of mankind. I know that Christ did do this. I know that He will come again just as He promised. I know that He is ready to succor me whenever I ask for His help. I know this because of the experiences I have had with the kids that I work with. I am right there waiting for them to ask for help and to comfort them when everything is going wrong. If I am how much more will a loving Father be. I know that botht the Father and the Son are one in purpose but separate in spirit and body. I know that Heavenly Father is a forgiving father. I screw up so much. I know that He has a plan, but i continually find myself making mistakes, being prideful, and not trusting. It's so hard not to fear the unknown. I do know that He knows the end from the beginning. i know that He knows my heart and that I want to be strong like Him. If I come to Him humbled, He will forgive me. I know that I have a Mother in heaven. I know this because of the importance and respesct given to women. I know that men and women are divinely created to bless the family unit. I know that the family is eternal. I know that I am asked to and can do great things. This includes, but is not limited to motherhood. I am entrusted with the sacred responsibilities to bear and raise children in the gospel, to teach their wondrous worth and send them out to teach others. I am also sent with talents and abilities meant to bless this Earth. Some of them have to do with art and creating. The Lord loves beauty and I feel so close to Him when I create art. In art, I am testifying of Him. I must do this with every action that I do. I know all of this partly because I was taught by my wonderful family. They didn't force me to believe what they do and I don't just believe it because they do. it was through their example. I love them so much. If I live my life according to the gospel, I will see them all again. I am forever linked to them through the covenants and ordinances given to us in temples and by proper authority. The Lord is offering us all that He is in those wonderful sacred places. I know this because I have asked. I have knelt down and poured out my heart to Him. I've asked Him if He loves me and if this gospel is true. The answer didn't come by a vision of angels. It wasn't easy. I don't "just believe". It took work and learning. It did come by a heavenly messenger though. The Holy Ghost, who testifies of the truth of all things taught me little by little, moment by moment, and over and over again. He has testified to me with an undeniable feeling, that what Joseph Smith said was true. He did see God the Father and Jesus Christ. They did call him to restore the true gospel. He did translate the Book of Mormon, which is the word of God. Every experience, every appearance of an angel, every doctrine is true. Even the hard ones to understand. One of the many doctrines he restored that has become written on my heart is the nature of individuals with developmental disabilities. They are celestial beings that came down to this Earth to gain a body and to teach us. They have already passed their test and now helping us with ours. I love them so much. I need them so much. I know that Thomas S. Monson is the prophet, the mouthpiece of God. I know that I am not alone and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen